Losing It

End of the Line

gladchance — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 21:54:46 +0000

I’m not posting any more blogs on this site. Since I started Jillian’s program online, I’ve been keeping a fitness diary there. I don’t have the willingness to keep up two sites. Thanks to you who took the trouble to read dietdemon.

Workout Misery

gladchance — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 16:50:06 +0000

I woke up this morning wanting to quit Jillian’s program rather than face doing one more of her workouts. I dread them. I feel like the world’s most unfit person. Actually, I feel that way only when I’m doing burpees, squat thrusts and mountain climbing. My legs feel like God has poured cement into them just before I’m going to jump. I was going to go to the gym to do these workouts, but I’d be embarrased to have any one see me do a burpee. It’s truly pathetic. I can’t imagine getting stronger, I feel like I’m going backwards. Oh well, what else do I have to do.

The recipies she puts out on her web site are fantastic. Tonight, for example, I’m going to make Almond Orange Chicken with raisins and spices. Sounds yummy.

I’ve also given some thought to staying away from the gym until the flu season peaks and wanes. Maybe a dumb idea, but it’s a thought.

Workout Buddy Where Are You?

gladchance — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 01:23:30 +0000

Yesterday, I had to take the car in to be serviced. This gave me the opportunity to do some outdoor cycling. I rode my bike the hour back to the house. My gears slipped so that I had to work up every hill. The chain completely slipped right off and I had to get my leather gloves all greasy putting it back on. My feet were freezing because I got my shoes wet in the early morning frost. My glasses were fogging up because I was so hot and the outside air was so cold. But, I loved it. It was great to be out in the fresh air.

Today, I did my second Jillian workout. God! they are hard, hard! I took my time doing the exercises so that I did them properly. I sweated tons. I heaved my body around like it weighed 500 lbs. I couldn’t do one exercise, but I sweated just trying to get into position. I really need a workout buddy. I looked on the JM website list of people looking for buddies and emailed a woman my age. I hope she answers me postively. I’m too tired and sore to be rejected.

I did 30 minutes on the exercycle so I could add more miles to my November 100 challenge. So far I’ve done 13 miles. I’m eating less now that I keep my food diary online and I’m working out so much. Less time and energy to eat.

I hope I can find a workout buddy so that i will stick to this.

Kudos to Jillian

gladchance — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:02:12 +0000

I take back everything I said about Jillian Michaels’ workout. I did one yesterday, and yes it was hard, yes it made me sweat, yes I complained like hell, but it wasn’t so hard I couldn’t do it. It was hard in a good way. I felt great after.

After searching thru the website, finding out what I get for my $4 a week, I discovered tons of stuff. Even though I don’t use the meal plans now, I may in the future. I’m really psyched about it. The workouts require equipment that I don’t have, but I can take the workout to my gym and do it. 35 minutes of cardio and 35 minutes of weights were a walk in the park compared to Jillian’s workout.

Her workout contains old fashioned calisthenics that I used to do a million years ago: jumping jacks, burpees, crab walks. I never realized how little strength and stamina I have until I did my first workout. And I know I can gain it all back, if I don’t wuss out. These workouts of Jillian’s are really more mind over matter than anything else. She (and I know it’s her team not really her) gave me a workout that suits me, so if I can stay with it, I’ll succeed.

As well, there are chat boards where you can talk to other members. You can find a workout buddy. There are other interesting activities you can participate in beyond your personal workout. It’s a great site. Take a look at it.

Back to Work

gladchance — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 03:19:24 +0000

I finally got back to the gym today. Felt wonderful! I did 35 minutes of cardio, followed by 35 minutes of weights. Because of the flu bug going around, I was extra careful to disinfect the equipment before and after using.

My protein shake for breakfast gave me plenty of energy to get through my workout. I know what I did wasn’t super strenuous, but I was happy not to be starving after.

Today, I received my first online program from Jillian Michaels. When I first saw that it was 5 circuit workouts, I though she was giving me my workouts for the week. Oh no! All of it was to be done in one day. I hadn’t seen anything so strenuous since a trainer in Phoenix handed me a workout to do. There is no way in this lifetime that I would feel compelled to do the assigned program Jillian set for me. Maybe if I were 25 years old, and had something to prove to myself, but I’m not and I don’t. It was unreal!!

I treated myself to lunch at an Indian restaurant, and enjoyed every mouthful. I know I should have passed on the naan, but what’s the point of Indian food if you don’t eat the naan. Supper was a green salad, tons of raw veggies and some feta cheese; so, the day was balanced.

Almost a Loser

gladchance — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 01:25:56 +0000

I can’t believe I actually went online and signed up for Jillian Michaels website. I love Jillian Michaels from The Biggest Loser. If I was a multi-milillionaire with money to burn, I would hire that woman to kick my butt every day. She is awesome.

Once I signed up, at $4 a week, I looked at the site and traveled around it finding out what I was paying for. I’m sure it’s a great site for lots of people, but it’s not for me. I have a week’s free trial and then I’m cancelling my account.

I know all the tips and information she gives out. I’m not interested in her blog. I’m not interested in chatting online with people who would think I’m nuts trying to lose weight when, according to Jillian, I’m already at my proper weight. I already use a food journal and an exercise journal. I’m not interested in the meal plans. I prepare all my own meals. What I’d be paying for is the use of the calorie counter and the calorie burning calculator. That would be a total waste of money.

I feel tons better today. So whatever bug I was incubating, I killed it with care. My brother, Paul, came for a visit and we went out for a 75 minute walk. I did lunges and squats, the plank and side planks for strength exercises today. Tomorrow, I must go into the gym.

I had oatmeal, rice milk and fruit for breakfast. A mixture of all the leftover soups for lunch with a piece of sprouted grain toast, chicken breast and mixed vegetables for supper.

Sick

gladchance — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 02:04:19 +0000

I’ve come down with some bug. My throat is sore, and I’m dead tired. All I could manage today was juices and soups, fruits and veggies. I know I’m sick when lying on the couch all day feels luxurious. When I’m healthy, I can’t sit still for a minute. I blame this on my son. Maybe.

Well Intentioned Doesn’t Cut It

gladchance — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 02:15:48 +0000

I had every intention of getting up and going to the gym today. It’s been 3 or 4 days since I’ve been. I woke up to a rainy, dark day and hadn’t an ounce of energy to get me to my car. I just wanted to sleep.

As well, I had told my brother that I would do some work for him. He pays me to do easy assembly work, and I was feeling guilty that I had been putting him off. So, no gym today.

I did get in a 15 minute walk outside, but that was the extent of my exercise. Meals were light. I had a protein shake for breakfast, black bean vegetable soup for lunch; lamb chops and coleslaw for supper. Only snacks were grapes, an apple and raw turnip.

I start out so well intentioned and then bloody life gets in my way. Well, that’s an excuse I haven’t used before.

Low Cal Lunch?

gladchance — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 02:38:34 +0000

I had lunch with a good friend today, and didn’t get a chance to go to the gym. I needn’t have worried about overeating; Helje (my friend) and I did so much talking that we popped food in our mouths only to draw a breath. Except for the bread the cafe served, the food was not spectacular. Too much oil on the salad, and the gourmet pizza was ruined with some kind of bland cheese melted all over it. So, it wasn’t hard to keep control.

I did stop in at a bakery after saying good bye to Helje. I wanted something sweet so I bought a date square, and a cherry pie (for my mother). The date square was horrible. I hate it when I eat something that has tons of calories but doesn’t satisfy. I should have stopped after the first bite, but I didn’t have the sense to.

For supper, I had a salad with tuna. I had only a small piece of cherry pie. It was yards better than the date square. I felt I needed to exercise away the demon date square and the cherry pie, so I exercycled for an hour while watching Law and Order on TV.

A Fast Five

gladchance — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:34:18 +0000

Yesterday, the weigh scale at the athletic club was gone from its usual place. I learned that it was malfunctioning and giving out incorrect readings. Either someone comes in and tests the scale for accuracy, or hundreds of women stormed the front desk protesting that the damn thing must be wrong.

I can’t believe I simply accepted that somehow I gained 5 lbs when I was exercising more and eating less.But the scale looked to be so space age modern. I will never trust it again. I think the club should install one of those scales that you have to move weights along a bar until the needle balances. Those are scary to use, but I trust them.

Anyway, according to my scale at home and my doctor’s scale, I weigh 154 lbs. Thank God! I never lost 5 lbs. so quickly.